In life, you have to face so many obstacles. You just got to be strong, stand up on your own feet and face it. There are ways to deal with pain and ways to grow and learn from it too. Everyone does make mistakes. From all the mistakes you've done, just make sure you learn something from it. Life has ups and downs, but it's worth living.

You may be an idiot for not making wise decisions for yourself and you'll end up regretting. You may be an idiot for getting yourself into trouble when you know something bad will happen in the end. You may be an idiot for taking the wrong path in life. Life sure is full of mistakes. Still, you need to learn and gain new experiences. No matter how challenging things can get, you've to meet it still. Life's full of sorrow, but you need to overcome it.

After something happened, I realized I should treasure and cherish whatever I have now. This has left a great impact to my life. I just don't know how I should face you. I'm sorry to whoever. I just feel so ashamed of myself. Sometimes, I just wonder what kind of a person am I. How could I be so heartless and cruel to do something so bad? I just feel so useless. Perhaps something just drove me into doing those kind of things. What's becoming of me? Sometimes, I just hate myself, because I don't know how to appreciate.

Right now, I feel it's the time for me to turn over a new leaf. I'll try my best to change for the better. God knows how many times already I keep telling myself this. It never works for me. I said I wanted to change, but why in the world I keep giving this piece of shit to myself? I want to take things easily in both relationship and school. I just want to be a better person who can do well in almost everything.

I just need to move on and stay strong. Curse you, weakness.

Hypocrisy.