I'll be sitting for my 'O'-level Malay papers this Monday.

Therefore, I need to study hard and put aside blogging just for the time being.

I'll be back soon with lots of interesting stories to share.

I still have yet to talk about the wedding.

Anyway, don't worry about me because everything is back to normal

Alright, got to go!

Wishing all the best to those students out there who'll be sitting for the papers this Monday!

Anyway, yesterday's picnic with the cousins was awesome! It has been a long time since we last went out together, I guess. Maybe things are going to be different when our first cousin is getting married real soon, which will be this Saturday! She used to organize different kinds of activities for us. Now that she's going to be a wife, perhaps it's going to be our turn to organize. I feel a little sad, but on a happier note, I'm excited of course because she's getting married! So, I'll be busy this Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I'm so looking forward to these days!

We had our picnic at the Botanics Garden and the weather was so sunny. We played different kind of card games, not forgetting Hansaplast, which left me some hand marks on my thighs. We had to keep changing spots as we couldn't get a good shade. It was still fun though. Then, it was video-taking time. I can't really mention about this just in case the future bride comes across my blog by accident and read my post. Who knows?

Anyway, thanks guys for making the day. I hope we'll have more outings too like we used to have in the past. I miss those times actually. I miss my childhood! Oh yes, I'll upload the rest of the pictures at my Multiply soon. I'll keep you guys updated!

Today, school was fine. We got our results back and that wasn't totally fine! Here are the results. This time round, the results are really bad. I disappointed myself and I really need to get back on the track. I need to buck up before I sit for Prelims. See how many more red marks than blue marks are there?

Hello! I've recovered. Wait, I'm still having a slight fever. So, for the first time in my life, I never had a very high fever. The highest temperature I took was 39.3! I guess maybe it was because I was caught in the rain two days back or maybe because I was stressed with exams and some other things. Life is difficult sometimes.

Good thing is, it was my mother's birthday yesterday. Since they knew that I was desperate to have pizzas for days, we decided to order. They pitied me actually. I had my two pizzas for the price of one. I thought I could have more than two slices, but I had only two in the end as I had no appetite. I never felt so ill before. I felt like collapsing last night, but I didn't.

I can't wait for tomorrow! I'm so looking forward to seeing my cousins. It has been years since we last had an outing. We'll be having a picnic tomorrow at the Botanics. I'm still deciding on what to wear. I still don't know what to bring so that all of us can eat! Suddenly, I feel so hungry.

Oh yes, my uncle came to my house with good news. He needs me to help him and APAD this July! They'll be selling paintings and many kind of activities more. I think they'll demonstrate batik painting and caricature? Something like that. He needs me to mend the stall! The event will be held at Expo. I'll keep you guys updated. (:

There's something I keep to myself that no one knows about it. Only my close cousins and my grandmother know about it. Right, guys? Thank you for lending an ear to me. I feel better now.

Finally! The moment I've been waiting. Exams are finally over! Now, I don't have to worry about staying up late just to read my notes. I'm so super happy! And when my major exams are finally over, I'll be happier. I'm sure I'm not going to do well this time round because I slacked a lot during classes. I slept, I ran away from classes (especially Mr Smiley's) and I didn't pay full attention to what the teachers were teaching. I just need to wait for the results for now.

So early in the morning, I already had to force myself to get up from the bed and accompany my grandmother for her check-up at the Family Clinic. I didn't take my shower first as I was so lazy. We waited for the doctor to come for almost two hours after the clinic has opened. I never felt so annoyed. I was restless and I wasted my time doing absolutely nothing. It's not that I didn't like the idea of accompanying my grandmother, but I just felt so bored!

After that, thought of going out, but I couldn't in the end as I remembered that I had my religious class. Since my grandmother wasn't feeling that well, I decided to stay at home and look after her. While I was looking for some ideas for my final layout, I felt so restless and hit the sack straight. It was a wonderful nap because I drooled on my bolster.

So, in the afternoon, I went for my class since my mother was already home. My small twin by the name of Asyiqah wasn't there. She's so adorable and smart! She likes me because I was wearing pink when I first met her. She was so excited when she got to know that our names were about the same. After that, headed home straight because I was rushing to do my preparatory work. I decided to go out alone to draw some trees. Since I was bored, I decided to accompany my best friend as she wanted to study. In the end, I decided not to prepare anything. Tomorrow, the only thing I have to do is to draw the final layout. I've to do my best for it as I don't have the rest of the work. Wish me the best of luck, guys! Now, I don't know where the hell my palette is.

On the eve of Mother's Day, my family and I went to Simpang Bedok and had dinner together for the very first time after a very long time since we last had. It took a very long time for them to serve the food though one of the crews kept saying that they were taking the dishes. By the time the last dish was served, everyone was already full. My grandmother embarrassed me by pocking and rubbing my belly in front of the whole crowd. She ate a lot on that night and I was happy because I wanted her to put on some weight.

Next day, we celebrated at my auntie's place which was near to my former school. We didn't have to travel far. On the day before, I went to buy an ice-cream cake from Swensen's and it was so delicious. Still craving for it though. I've yet to buy a small piece of cake for my grandmother as I didn't get to bring some home for her. My beloved Darwis was there! I like the way he went up to me, hoping that I would carry him. He was heavy. When he kisses, he'll make a sound. His mother threatened his older brother that the doctor would give him an injection if he didn't behave. He cried and then Darwis hugged him and gave a kiss (plus a sound). So adorable, I tell you! After that, I went to the library alone to borrow some books on Art and headed home after that.

It's one hour after midnight and I'm still facing the screen. Sometimes, life's so boring. I don't feel sleepy still. Well, time to go and force myself to sleep. Good night.

Happy Mother's Day to my beloved mother, Sutinah Sukiyar. Without you, I'll not be sitting here, updating. In nicer words, I'll not be able to see this beautiful world. Every morning, I'll always wake up, looking forward to seeing you. You've sacrificed a lot for me since the day you had me inside my first home, your womb. Going through the nine whole months of hard times is a big sacrifice. You never failed to make me happy. Sometimes, you would hurt me with your words, but I didn't mind because it was for my own good. I'm not able to say all this to you in person because I don't have the guts to because I'm so shy. Only Issha knows how it feels like. Right, babe? What matters most, I love you and I appreciate every single thing you've done for me.

I didn't mean to fight back your words all this while. I don't even have the guts to apologize you in person! But, I'm always sorry for what I do wrongly. As your only daughter, which you can only depend on, I always try my very best to do well in my studies to make you proud. Whenever I succeed in something, you'll always be the first person to be told. I want to do well in my major exams this year, proceed to the next level, graduate from my secondary school with a certificate, go to my dream school, get a good paying job and enjoy life together with you and the rest of the family.

Whenever I perform my prayers, I'll always pray for you to be blessed with good health and longevity and also to be protected because I know, you never failed to pray for me. You've been guiding me through out my fifteen years. You are always there for me whenever I need you. You helped me a lot when I had my first accident. When you saw tears rolling down my cheeks, you used a tissue paper to wipe them away. You helped me to change before I went for an x-ray and you even helped me to the wheelchair. Through out that whole week of pain, you sacrificed a lot for me. You had to carry me so that I could get up from the bed. You cooked my favourite dishes so that I would eat. You had to walk with me to everywhere we went despite how horrible I looked. You would hold my hands to make sure that I was safe. You kept reminding me to pray because I should be thankful to God as he gave me a chance to live. Every night, you would help me to clean my wounds and helped me to bed.

But, you've done a lot more than this. I can't list down everything because there are a lot of sacrifices. Once again, thanks for being with me all this while. Thanks for sacrificing for me. Thanks for giving me everything that I want. Thanks for guiding me. Thanks for every single thing. Ibu, you're the bestest mother. I love you, always.

Hello, I'm back for a proper update. I feel so thirsty right now and I'm so super lazy to drag myself to the kitchen. The weather sure is humid. It looks like it's going to rain since the clouds are red. It's half past one and my eyes are not even sleepy. I just want a glass of cold drink right now.

Everyone has already gone to bed and I feel so lonely. Actually, I felt like studying just now. Unfortunately, I changed my mind. I missed blogging.

My brother has gone to serve his National Service last Friday. The house seems quiet without him. Well, with or without him around, I just feel the same. I feel like he's in the room right now, minding his own business like he usually does. I miss seeing him inside my room, using my laptop. He didn't come home today because he couldn't. He can only come back home after two weeks, which means, next Saturday. Oh yes, something touched me before he left. After school, I quickly called him because I was afraid that I couldn't get to talk to him. Luckily, he was still making his way to Tekong. For the very first time in my teenage years, he said something sweet.

Me: Hello! Take good care of yourself, okay? Call home if there's anything.

Him: You too, take care okay? Don't fool around.

For the very first time, he talked to me in English! I wanted to say 'I love you' to him, but I didn't have the guts to do so as I'm not really close to him. Anyway, it's raining now!

Examinations are next week and time is flying so fast. I've yet to write down all the important points that I need to remember. Later on, I'll be going over to my beloved cousins' place to teach one of my cousins Maths. Teaching someone Maths is something that I should be proud of! I'm not that good in that subject, but hey, it won't hurt to try. I'll be teaching her the simple ones. Oh yes, about the Avatar movie. I think it has nothing to do with the anime. So, I'm disappointed! Okay, that was random.

We ate and had desserts after that. He got a bowl of free ice-cream which I didn't know that he could get one since it was his birthday at first! We paid the bills and took a train to City Hall. Before that, he went to the toilet to change into his new shirt. He looked cute in it because it was small. I couldn't get a bigger size. I just found the receipt! The receipt was just under my laptop. Too bad, we can't go and change it since the extended date of exchange was yesterday.

We rushed to Suntec City to catch the 'Jangan Tegur' movie. We missed the first fifteen minutes of the show. The ghosts were kind of scary but, I just hate the parts where the ghosts popped out all of a sudden. Not forgetting, the sound effects. Now, I got so many movies in my mind that I want to watch. I feel so thirsty again! I drank already.

Back to the story. We went to Somerset since we knew that the train was going to be packed and took a bus back to Tampines. Then, home sweet home! Anyway, thanks for the day dear. I love you.

We had breakfast at Changi and waited for the rest at the jetty point. We took a bum boat there and travelled by van to the beach. I can't really remember the name of the beach. I sat down and read the papers while the rest fished. I kept hearing kittens meowing in the bushes and I actually did go into the bushes just to find the pathetic kittens. Whenever I went in there, they stopped making sounds. I had to go deep into the bushes just to bring them out. I was kind of worried for them and forgot about my own safety. I gave up and went to join the rest instead.

Again, they kept meowing. I went into the bushes again with my father friend's girlfriend. I gave up again and decided to fish instead. We didn't catch anything but the rest, some of them got stingray and some fishes which I don't know the names. It was kind of boring because it was boring! No toilets, the kittens won't even show their cute faces and the butterflies kept flying away from me. So, I laid down on the mat and slept. The ground was hard since there were a lot of small rocks. I managed to get some sleep still. We spent the whole morning till afternoon over there. Can you imagine how boring can that be? I was kind of pissed off when I couldn't get any fishes. So, I put prawns, squids and worms as the bait, hoping that I could get one. In the end, I didn't. The kittens kept meowing but, I didn't bother about it anymore. My father told me that it might be snakes. I told him, "How can snakes meow?". He was joking, but he sounded serious.

In the afternoon, our driver came to pick us up. Then, we went back to our main land. Home sweet home! It was tiring, but I did have some fun. Just a little bit.