# 100
Friday, June 26, 2009
{ 8:41 PM }
Life is life, live it and make something good of it.
In life, you have to face so many obstacles. You just got to be strong, stand up on your own feet and face it. There are ways to deal with pain and ways to grow and learn from it too. Everyone does make mistakes. From all the mistakes you've done, just make sure you learn something from it. Life has ups and downs, but it's worth living.
You may be an idiot for not making wise decisions for yourself and you'll end up regretting. You may be an idiot for getting yourself into trouble when you know something bad will happen in the end. You may be an idiot for taking the wrong path in life. Life sure is full of mistakes. Still, you need to learn and gain new experiences. No matter how challenging things can get, you've to meet it still. Life's full of sorrow, but you need to overcome it.
After something happened, I realized I should treasure and cherish whatever I have now. This has left a great impact to my life. I just don't know how I should face you. I'm sorry to whoever. I just feel so ashamed of myself. Sometimes, I just wonder what kind of a person am I. How could I be so heartless and cruel to do something so bad? I just feel so useless. Perhaps something just drove me into doing those kind of things. What's becoming of me? Sometimes, I just hate myself, because I don't know how to appreciate.
Right now, I feel it's the time for me to turn over a new leaf. I'll try my best to change for the better. God knows how many times already I keep telling myself this. It never works for me. I said I wanted to change, but why in the world I keep giving this piece of shit to myself? I want to take things easily in both relationship and school. I just want to be a better person who can do well in almost everything.
I just need to move on and stay strong. Curse you, weakness.
Hypocrisy.
# 98
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
{ 12:20 PM }
Hello, this is my second post of the day. I'm bored and I have the intention to study. The problem is, there's no one to guide me along the way. Somehow, I still need to study really soon! The major examinations are few months away and time flies really fast. I'm not prepared at all!
Nothing much to do at home, except to laze around. I'll be going over to the cousins' place later on. I don't know why I miss them terribly even though we've met last night. Maybe because we did almost everything together during the trip and we got even closer and closer. These are the four awesome cousins I've been mentioning about in my posts. They live just across the road and it makes my life more easier as I can come over anytime I want. Their parents are awesome! They're very understanding, especially their mother. Usually, I share my secrets with her and she'll give me useful advices. I just love the whole family! God willing, we'll be traveling again together next year.
I don't know what to talk about. I still have four more stories to share with you all. I guess I'll post again soon? It's already noon and I've not taken my shower. I guess I want to hit the sack again. Take care!
# 96
Monday, June 22, 2009
{ 11:36 PM }
Copied from my little notebook and here are some pictures.
Day 1
Dear notebook, this place is awesome! We just checked into our rooms. The girls and I are sharing the same room.
The room is quite small, but it's just nice for the four of us. We're resting for a little while before we go for the rides. I'm starving even though I've eaten a burger earlier on. All of us are lying down on the bed while watching the television. I want to ride the roller coasters as many as I can later on!
Anyway, we took a coach here. It's a double decker bus! So cozy! I'm having a cold flu right now and I don't know what caused it. I don't really feel cold. In this room, there's a fan. Of course, there's no need for an air conditioner to be placed here. The weather is already breezy! Alright, nature's calling. I'll update more later on.
3:54PM
Dear notebook, we just came back from the indoor theme park. We went out in the afternoon and had our dinner. I shared a plate of fried rice with my cousin. It was delicious, but it was pipping hot! Then, we went to play a ride. I didn't join the rest because I was afraid that I was going to puke due to the spicy fried rice I had earlier on. I felt a burning sensation inside my stomach. Then, I went around the place with the second sister to kill the time while waiting for their turn to ride. Guess what? We found a Mango outlet!
I didn't buy anything at first because I wasn't interested in buying. We went around, just the both of us and it was kind of scary because earlier on, we got disturbed thrice. Without any adults accompanying us, things could get worse. Then, we went back to where we last met the rest. We waited for them to finish the ride.
Next, it was shopping time! We went into many different kinds of shops. In the end, I only bought a skirt from Mango. I wanted a beautiful skirt, but it wasn't my size even though it was the smallest size! It was hell freaking loose! We bought pizzas for supper and here I am now, inside the room. Alright, time to bathe! I'll update again!
9:30PM
Day 2
Good morning, my little notebook! We're now waiting for the rest in the next room to get ready to go for breakfast.
We've not taken our shower yet, but we've brushed our teeth. The weather is cold. I slept well last night, maybe because I was so tired.
Alright, got to go now! The rest are ready. It's breakfast time! After that, we'll go back to our room and bathe. Then, it's roller coasters time! Next shopping, I guess? More updates later on!
7:14AM
Dear notebook, we just came back from the outdoor theme park. The very first ride was Flying Coaster. I didn't really feel safe because there was no belt or something to hold us tightly. All we had to do was to lie down and there was something behind to protect us. The queue wasn't long. In fact, after we paid, we just went straight in.
We played the Pirate Ship and I swear my uncle was cute! It's difficult for me to see him in a happy mood as he's serious at most of the time. He made so many cute noises and he even shouted, telling the person who was in charge of the ride to stop the ship. Of course, he was joking. He even pretended to vomit every time the ship went down.
Next, it was the Corkscrew. My most awesome ride for the day! It was quite high. It went up, down and spun like crazy! I love the spinning part. I wanted to ride it for the second round. Unfortunately, the queue was long.
The next best thing on my list, Spaceshot! I didn't want to ride on it at first because I know I was afraid of heights. That ride, it brings you up very high up to the sky, where you can see almost everything from up there and the next thing you know, you're going down in a very fast speed! The first cousin wanted to ride on it, but she was alone. So, I decided to join her. It's a waste if I didn't play the rides after paying. There aren't any great rides here in Singapore anyway. Guess what? I met my classmate while we were queueing. Spaceshot was great! I could see the hills, everyone on the ground and more. When it went down for the first round, I couldn't scream because it happened all of a sudden. I felt like I was floating in the air and our butts lifted off from out seats. It was a scary and fun experience. I'm not going to ride on it anymore though it's fun! The embarrassing part is, I cried after the ride.
Then, we took a ride on the boat at Dinosaurland. Nothing much to elaborate on this. After that, we ride the Genting Skyway Gondola. We had our lunch at the bottom of the hills, where the weather was humid. Then, we decided to go back to the peak. The last ride was Rolling Thunder Mine Train. It was a thrilling ride, but it only lasted for a few seconds. Alright, shall not talk much. I'm dead tired. After dusk, we'll be going out again. Going bowling, I guess? They planned to buy a cake for my uncle to celebrate Father's Day. I still need to buy a lot of things later on.
6:53PM
# 93
Monday, June 15, 2009
{ 2:21 AM }
Hello, everyone! It has been almost a week since I last updated. I was busy with different kind of things and the other reason is because I was also lazy. I'm all alone in this dark room and I need to hit the sack real soon as I'll be having a class with my teacher in the morning. My grandmother is away and she's sleeping over at my cousin's place for the time being. Today is Monday and in four more days time, I'll be going off to the Highlands! I can't wait to have fun with my four awesome cousins!
I miss going back to school and I almost totally forgot about my poor canvas and the preparatory work which I've not started on. I always have the feeling that keeps telling me to abandon the works. That bad, eh? So, some of my past days were boring. I ate, slept, played games and you know, the usual. Now that my brother is finally home before he serves the country again for the next two years, I can't conquer the game platforms inside his room for now.
I'm having cramps in my stomach since it's already the time of the month and it just sucks. I'm still hungry even though I've eaten a bowl of instant noodles at the cousins' place for dinner just now and that was my first meal for the day! So, I spent the night over there since no one was at home, except for my brother. All of our parents had dinner at a hotel and us, the kids, weren't allowed to follow. The dinner was just for the parents. While they were having fantastic, delicious and tasty food over there, we had two packets of potato chips, a packet of chocolate chip cookies and not forgetting the star of the day, curry flavored instant noodles! We watched Happy Feet since I missed watching that movie. Then, I made my way home as my parents were on their way home. I thought of sleeping over but because of the class, I couldn't. Actually, I could. Enough about last night, or perhaps just now.
Anyway, about the outing, which was two days ago, was awesome! The day will always be a great one when you spend the day with your beloved ones, but my special someone wasn't there. I guess he was upset about what happened before. Well, I shall not elaborate on that.
My day started off in a bad way and it really made me so annoyed. I was already all dressed up when I couldn't find my shoes. That was the only pair that matched with the dress. I searched highs and lows for it. I searched for it in the cupboard outside my house. It wasn't there. Not in my wardrobe, not under the bed and also not inside the storeroom. Do you want to know where? Keep on reading. The answer will be revealed later on. I was so late and I even cried while I ate my lunch, my tasty lunch, which I didn't get to enjoy it. I was scolded by my mother and I was so innocent! That really made me feel even more upset. I didn't do anything wrong at all. My shoes were misplaced and I didn't know who to be blamed.
So, I changed into something simple since my shoes were misplaced and wore slippers instead. I didn't iron my clothes and luckily, it looked totally fine. I grabbed, wore and went. I thought I was going to miss the bus, but I didn't. Thanks to my legs, which intended to run. I took the train and met them at the platform. Then, we went to meet the boys and waited for the big star! All of us then walked to Marina Square as they wanted to eat first. I only had a drink since I wasn't in the mood to eat because of the stupid incident that happened at home and also because I already had my tasty lunch. Then came the cute couple. Pity the guy. His knee was in pain. See? He used to disturbed me when I was recovering after the accident. Now, he already knows how it feels like to be called 'duck'. Despite his condition, he did help me a lot in taking pictures. Anyway, hope you're doing fine now! Get well soon!
So, we went to bowl! Lady Luck wasn't by my side on that day. So, I didn't have any strikes. I still had fun though and my right arm is in a great pain right now. How I wish my grandmother is here to give me a good massage. The bowling ball kept going to the gutters and that was only the starting of the game. After bowling, we slacked at Esplanade and then, home sweet home!
Okay, shall not elaborate more. I think this post is long enough. Anyway, thanks guys for making the day. Must go out again really soon! But, it must be complete next time round. No more missing persons. I'll update more when I have the time. Here are some of the pictures. Time to hit the sack!
I miss you. Leave me a message here or something, okay? Hope you're having a great time there. When you come back, I'll be gone.
I found my shoes inside the cupboard which I've mentioned earlier on. It was just under my heels.
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