I'm supposed to start studying right now. I'm happy for myself that I spent more than three hours revising my Chemistry at the library just now. I spent hours only on the topic about metals and I've yet to attempt the questions later on. Damn it, my head's starting to ache.

Today, I went to school to seek help from my Physics teacher in the morning. I overslept and thanks to my father, I could make it on time, just a few minutes late. Oh yes, while I was about to go to bed last night, one of my classmate's face appeared in my dreams all of a sudden. I then started to reminisce the past. I'm still missing my classmates, the class and my teachers' teachings. I still can't accept the fact that we've graduated.

After class, I went to have breakfast with the Chinese boys and slacked at the void deck for a little while before going to Pasir Ris. The weather was so humid during the day. I felt restless and then decided to go home straight. Alright, nothing much to elaborate. I had fun as it was my first time going out with them!

I shall go now and prepare my schedule for next week and then I'll continue revising my Chemistry. Anyway, here's the speech which I shared with you all yesterday. I thought of typing it here in case some of you might not understand what I was talking about during the ceremony.

Finally, the whole class was almost completed (only a few of our classmates weren't there) during the class photo-taking after the ceremony. I just realized that the class looks pretty big in the picture. Anyway, we had so much fun during school. We didn't really study as it was the last time we were going to spend time together inside the classroom. We gathered around the tables and played 'Murderer' using the cards. I did share with them the brownies I baked last night and that was the first surprise. I also realized that I'm closer to those whom I wasn't really close to nowadays. It's pretty sad that we won't be able to do all the things we used to do together inside the classroom anymore.

Before recess was our last Chemistry lesson. We were begging our form teacher to release us earlier as we wanted to get tables for the class. Finally, we got to eat together as a class during recess today. One of my friends said that it would be great if we could eat together every day, but it's already too late to start since today's the last day. It was still sweet of him to say that. After recess, we went back to class to continue the game before going to the canteen again for the career booth thing. Instead of going to the canteen, I killed the time by using the computer at the lab. My friends and I then went to put on our ties first before proceeding to the hall.

When I reached the hall, my heart started to beat even faster. It was prize-giving ceremony at first and followed by the speeches. The dare which I mentioned in my last Thursday's post was about the speech. I didn't know why I was so brave enough to volunteer myself to become the speaker. Then, it was time for me to go to the back of the hall with the another classmate of mine. Since my class was the first class, both of us were the first ones to make the speech. It was so nerve-wrecking when I stood in front of the crowd. Everyone was laughing at the slideshow that was being played on the screen and I didn't know how to get their attention.

I was trembling! My hands especially. I started the speech first by reading out the introduction before my friend's turn to read. I only made eye contacts with my classmates and teachers. After the first speech, I read out the second message which I spent the whole night last night, thinking on what to write all by myself. I was kind of paranoid because I thought my English was going to sound bad because I didn't get to ask my English teacher to look out for any errors. Whatever it is, I'm pretty glad that things turned out well. Anyway, the speech which I've specially written for my friends was the second surprise. It was from the piece of paper which I kept hiding from my friends.

After the ceremony ended, each of us received some cards from three of our teachers and it almost made me cry when I read them. I was really touched when the two of my teachers mentioned that they would want to see me again next year. This motivates me to study even harder because I don't wish to let them down. Actually, I was supposed to study right now, but I'm still distracted by this weird feeling since just now. Later on, I'll have to go back to school to consult my Physics teacher and I'm still not getting any sleep. Suddenly, I realized that I've been spending more than two hours updating.

After ceremony, we went to the canteen to have some food. Unfortunately, I didn't get to taste any as I didn't feel like to. My new co-form teacher actually made me cry when she gave me words of encouragement. I guess the reason why I cried maybe because I realized the sacrifices every teacher has made or maybe because teachers never stop encouraging their students? I don't know? Whatever it is, I got to eat pizzas my Mother Tongue teacher ordered for the Malay students right after that.

You know what? My whole class is still waiting for our class photos and I wonder when are we getting it. Anyway, I still can't believe that I've graduated and I'm starting to miss the whole class already, including the teachers. So, I guess I won't be looking forward to any lessons anymore. I'm starting to miss all the teachings. Why am I starting to miss everything?! Maybe I'm just overreacting or too emotional.

All I have to do now is to make good use of the remaining time left studying before the next paper starts. Alright, got to go! I want to watch One piece just for a little while before hitting the sack.

The day is finally here! Sadly to say, I'm not looking forward to Graduation Ceremony later on. I guess today will be the very last day I'll get to sit inside the class with the rest of my classmates. I'll miss every single thing that has happened inside the classroom. In a simpler words, I'll miss every single moment we've shared. I still have yet to prepare something, but I just don't know how to do it! I'm doing it right now while updating.

My hands are trembling and my heart just keeps beating faster and faster. I hate this kind of feeling so much. Like seriously, I'm not looking forward to attending the ceremony. Why does time have to fly so fast? I'm finally done, but I'm not well prepared for it. There's something missing. I'll try again in the morning later on. Who knows I can get more ideas?

I got to spend more time with the ones whom I'm not really closed to just now (yesterday) and they made me so happy. I'm glad that I still have a day left to be with them inside the classroom. On a brighter side, my class will be organizing an outing in October! I have two surprises for later and I just can't wait to share with them.

I'll update about my Hari Raya celebration soon.