# 202
Sunday, May 16, 2010
{ 4:57 PM }
I just watched Metropolis, a 1927 film and I think it's my first time watching a silent film. I don't really get the storyline actually. Anyway, exam is finally over. I guess I can't be too excited since the major one is not officially over yet and I'm starting on my new study schedule soon.
It's windy outside and it has started to drizzle. I can't go to sleep now since I slept during noon. I really love this kind of weather! It was scorching hot during noon and I kept perspiring. It would be even better if I could play in the rain with my girls like how we used to when we were going home after school in the past.
I've been slacking for quite some time before and after the last paper. I didn't study for the last paper because I was mentally tired. Instead of studying on Thursday night, I was out to meet Love and his friend, whom I know. I met Love first and I was so shocked to see him at first. I thought he was an old classmate of mine. It turned out he was my own boyfriend with a new haircut. Then we took a bus to Compassvale to meet Alep. We slacked at the void deck and then he drove us to a night market because I was starving. We were supposed to eat at East Coast Park on that night but it was cancelled as something came up. They sent me home and then, home sweet home. I can't remember what I did on Friday.
Yesterday was my beloved mother's birthday. My parents went on a date first before celebrating together. I had nothing to do at home. So, I went to return my library books at Bedok as yesterday was already the due date. Alep volunteered to send me there because he was from the hospital and then he dropped me at Love's void deck. Love was surprised and I had to wait for a little while because he wanted to take a shower first. We killed the time before going back home. At night, I had dinner together with my parents.
See? My days were pretty slacking. I needed a break. Alright, I want to shut down my laptop now. I'm starting to perspire again.
# 201
Friday, May 14, 2010
{ 12:39 AM }
This has been bothering me since just now. I wish I could let everything out, but what am I supposed to say? Honestly, I do feel proud of you. I really do. After what I said to you, you really changed, in a good way of course. I thought my advice meant nothing to you. Somehow, it did make you realised something. I thought you wouldn't listen to me. Seriously. I felt happy knowing that you listened to my advice. You know how much it means to me? It means a lot, really. However, these changes affect me a lot. It makes me feel so awkward towards you. You're like a different person. I really need to get used to it. I really do.
Another thing, I really miss the old us.
# 200
Monday, May 3, 2010
{ 10:52 PM }
I had a pretty heartbreaking dream in the afternoon just now and 'she' appeared. Well, she wasn't really there but somehow, I knew that she was involved. I'm trying to avoid paranoia and pessimism. Well, I just can't. She kept appearing a few times before. I hate this feeling and it's making me feel so gloomy. In the past, I saw this silver chain with a tag pendant Love was wearing. I wanted to see what was being carved on it, but he didn't allow me to. Maybe because his ex-girlfriend gave him or something. Till now, I don't know a single shit about it.
So, in my dream, the silver chain turned out to be a gift from her. He was wearing it when we were together. Who wouldn't get mad? So, I took it away from him and went to a big field. Sometimes, dreams can be weird. Suddenly, I was holding another silver chain that was given by his mother. I threw the two of them as far as I could in the middle of the field. Love hurried to the middle of the field and looked for the one his ex gave. Suddenly, his mother appeared out of nowhere and scolded me for throwing away the silver chains. I just walked off and ignored. The next scene, I was punching him in the face.
See? It's making me feel so gloomy whenever I think about the dream. Well, you guys didn't know what happened in March right? If you check out my March archives, I was on a short break from the start of the month. On our fourth month, which fell on the first day of the month, something bad happened and I swear it was super heartbreaking. Lies, so many lies. Nineteen years old? Turned out to be a fucking fifteen. Working? Turned out to be a student. What's worse? Love was contacting with her on the fucking month we just got fucking together. That is why whenever 'she' appears in my dreams, I become paranoid and will think badly of him. He did gain my trust back now but having this kind of dreams make me feel so horrible. If you're wondering who is 'she', she's Love's ex-girlfriend. Till now, I do still hate her even though it happened in the past. I know I'm mean, but I don't know why. Once I hate that person, it's quite difficult for me to like him or her.
Oh God, I'll be sitting for the Social Studies paper tomorrow and I've not started revising. For English, I guess I only need to memorize the format. I'm going to start revising right after this. Actually, I'm supposed to start revising right now. But, I just miss blogging. Many things happened during the day. Good thing, I'll be attending school tomorrow and Thursday. Isn't that great?
So yesterday, I spent the day with Love and on Saturday, I spent the day with my beloved girl. We celebrated our sixth month and it was my treat this time. We ate at Ramen Ten and headed to Arab Street for a hookah session. Alright, shall not elaborate more. Time is precious.
# 199
Sunday, May 2, 2010
{ 12:45 PM }
My beloved, awesome, sweetest and loving brother bought me this!!! I had been waiting for a pretty long time and he surprised me with it last night. Isn't he sweet? Now, I got a new game to play!
# 198
Saturday, May 1, 2010
{ 1:00 PM }
Happy 6th month, Love! I love you so, so much! A date with you tomorrow. (:
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